Why do I blog?

I really don’t know how to start this blog. I guess it’s good to start witht this – Welcome to by personal blog. Its been a reaaaaaaaaal while since I last posted something. To be honest, I’m not really in a blogging mood lately (maybe permanently). But I just can’t let go of the idea of owning a personal domain or blog. I remember almost half-of-my-age ago, I really wanted to have one like this and even tho domains and websites are something I could easily get to and loose now – because of the nature of my work, I don’t want to lose that version of me who wants to have her own little space on the web.

I’ve been really thinking about this a lot lately. What is the purpose of this all? Why do I blog? Why should I keep on blogging? If you ask me years ago, I would have totally answered this easily. I used to blog everything and frequently and I don’t mind it.

Now in this day and age of viral quizzes and selfies, people are already posting about their lives left and right. Some post too much information that people don’t really need to know, some post for validation and some post for the visual (you know “instagram-worthy” pictures) – this last one I admit it’s nice but at the end of the day, everything seems so overwhelming and very staged that I want to roll my eye and shut down.

With blogging, it’s all the same. Bloggers who blog for money, to maintain their branding and worst, etc. Don’t get me wrong, I still know a couple of personal bloggers. But we all know things have changed in the blogging world.

It really makes me think, do I want to broadcast my life out there? Why do I blog then? Maybe I don’t know the answer to this yet or maybe I know but I just don’t think deeper.

Really, the only reason I blogged right now is because when I cancelled my web hosting account (yes, I was really quitting blogging) , my host offered me a two-month free service so it kinda pushed me into blogging again since I don’t want to waste free stuff.

And speaking of blogging, I know I keep on saying that my life is boring. And true, there’s nothing much to share. (Hence, I was thinking of quitting.) I am also super socially awkward and nerdy. And to be totally honest, I’m having a hard time right now. I want to be sociable and all – meet with friends – and even explore what life has to offer – but a bigger part of me still wants to be in my comfort zone and stay home. Just curl up, and maybe watch a movie or a show or fangirl. Not to mention, let me be freaking honest. I am a PWD. So that puts a limit on what I can do. It’s really hard to break out from this but hey this is my life.

So, will I keep on blogging? I guess I will. I can’t stop after all. It’s a little shame but like everyone else, kinain na ako ng sistema.