I’ve been meaning to write about something here for the past few days. But do you know the feeling when something happened to you and all you can do is keep it to yourself or just think about it? (No, in my case, it’s not love-related) I guess I’ll write about it when it’s final.

PS: You may have an idea about it if you follow my tweets.

Sometimes, no actually most of the time – especially recently, I wonder what the heck am I doing with my life. I feel like I should be doing something else instead of wasting my time and energy. I don’t know… For example, recently I get annoyed when I’m doing house chores. Especially when Floyd/BF-I-live-with emphasize that it’s my job as the “lady” in the house. I admit it’s because I usually don’t want to do it but there’s also the pressure I’m feeling everytime he states my responsibilities.

Living together is sure a big thing and to be honest, I kinda want to give up.

Then there is also my mother-thing. I feel guilty that I left my mother for my boyfriend. She raised me because she wants to be with somebody (me) and I feel like I failed her and I feel guilty that she’s now kind of alone. She visits us here from time to time and I feel bad because my attention’s not 100% into her when she’s here. Well, for me, I think we don’t have much talk about and being together with her is enough for me.

I’m afraid that we’ll loose our connection eventually. I don’t want that.

It has been a week or so but I’m still not 100% done with this site. Still lots to do. Maybe this will take me a month. I suppose that’s kinda ok but in a month I’ll be paying again for the new hosting which is kinda expensive for me. And it’s putting me down because of the pressure… that I need to work blah blah blah.

I know I need to work to get moolah but I’m just in the ‘just-update-the-site’ mood lately and the new Pottermore site is not helping. It’s taking over my whole life.

Ok, I’ll get back now to the potion I’m brewing. I hope I’ll get it right this time! I failed!