My friend Lady had just finished decorating her home and I am kind of envious of her. LOL I also want to do it in our house but unfortunately, we are only renting so I’m not sure if we can do that here. Plus, our house is just small, you can compare it to just a room. DX

But if we’re going to have a real opportunity to renovate the house, I’d consider using Wallpapers for the wall, some bunch of great furnitures and decorations, maybe corner fireplaces (lol I can dream), paintings, etc.

Now I’m inspired. LOL Maybe when we get our aircon, well have a chance to renovate because I’m thinking of moving back to the bedroom area when we get it. Right now, we’re sleeping in the living room which is near the windows.

O.M.G I think it is really, finally confirmed that Floyd and I are getting married. Within this year. He’s been pushing me to go on with my Confirmation (as in Kumpil in our own language – that one catholic thing required before a church wedding) since I failed to get it when I was in high school. Back in my days, it will take you months before you get confirmed cos it was like a every-sunday thing for months. Before, I hate that kind of participation so yeah, I didn’t finished it. LOL

So now, after really taking it in, all I can think about is WHAT I WOULD WEAR and that I’M SO BIG! But then after a while, I thought that maybe being big is not really a problem since there are a lot of plus-size dresses out there. Plus, I can always choose a custom-made dress. So I begin searching for ideas for my “wedding dress”. Basically I don’t want a long dress and it should be with sleeves because I’m not really confident with my arms and whole body in general. /haha Also, it should be simple because we only want a simple wedding.

So I searched here’s what I found and like:

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Sometimes, no actually most of the time – especially recently, I wonder what the heck am I doing with my life. I feel like I should be doing something else instead of wasting my time and energy. I don’t know… For example, recently I get annoyed when I’m doing house chores. Especially when Floyd/BF-I-live-with emphasize that it’s my job as the “lady” in the house. I admit it’s because I usually don’t want to do it but there’s also the pressure I’m feeling everytime he states my responsibilities.

Living together is sure a big thing and to be honest, I kinda want to give up.

Then there is also my mother-thing. I feel guilty that I left my mother for my boyfriend. She raised me because she wants to be with somebody (me) and I feel like I failed her and I feel guilty that she’s now kind of alone. She visits us here from time to time and I feel bad because my attention’s not 100% into her when she’s here. Well, for me, I think we don’t have much talk about and being together with her is enough for me.

I’m afraid that we’ll loose our connection eventually. I don’t want that.